my micro dosing experience
Date: 9th August 2022
Dosage: 0.15g every second day
Type: Psilocybin Mushroom
Duration: 30 days
I began my micro dose journey coming from a rut, I was depressed, anxious and in constant pursuit for my vision of a better life, for self-growth and the expansion of my business. Although I was achieving milestones and dreams, I wasn’t enjoying the process, and the achievements would come and go with little satisfaction. I knew better than this, I knew I had closed myself off and limited the amount of love I was receiving. My health suffered, my relationships suffered, my work suffered. I was in this state of eternal longing for the future, but unable to accept the present moment for its abundance.
So, I shifted things up, I removed what wasn’t working and made a fresh start with the introduction of micro dosing.
Day 1 – 3
The beginning of this trial was met with excitement and confusion, the heaviness had lifted, and I noticed I was taking better care of myself. The confusion was present due to the thoughts and feelings wanting illogical action. It wasn’t what I “thought I should be doing” and I couldn’t make sense of my movements. But I allowed myself to release control of the process while remaining focused on my vision.
Day 4 – 6
The clarity that met me during this time was confronting, I was grieving. Grieving the experiences, I had recently been through. The emotions I had held within surfaced and met me headfirst. I had to confront them, all the negativity I was aware of but refused to sit in. This grief was met with so much love and support from myself. The shrooms seemed to open me up and accept the current reality with loving arms.
Day 7 – 13
This period was powerful. I was pursuing my dreams and taking care of what needed to be done, all in a state of love. I was present in each moment to savour the experience of the day. I was loving my life to the fullest, I was feeling into everything. I encountered some challenging events within my external reality, but they were quickly processed and met with love in turn. All my depression and anxiety seemed like a distant memory. I was taking on life and leading with my heart. I was enjoying every second of the journey while pushing to create a better world around me.
Day 14 – 19
These days felt like any, the effects of the micro dosing became less noticeable, but I was still in a blissful state. The best way to explain it is I felt I had unlocked a new way of moving throughout the world. Unlocked my way of moving throughout the world. Things were being achieved but it wasn’t a struggle, I was allowing myself to flow with the world around me. The act of taking the shrooms was now more of a ritual and lost its excitement.
Day 20
So, day twenty rolls around and I’m two-thirds into this experience. A friend requests to take a higher dose of mushrooms with me… I hesitate for a second because I know it’ll disrupt my 30-day experience. I take a moment to tune into my intuition, something made much easier from the micro-dosing. Everything is telling me yes, so I lean into the experience. We take 2g each and start a hike. The day ends up being one of my favourite recent memories, met with adventure, laugher, breakthroughs and love.
Day 21 – 30
So here I was, two-thirds of the way through this experiment that had changed my life for the better. It had led me to where I needed to go and offered me guidance in the process. I however was met with a decision… Continue with the experience and push through feelings of stopping or to trust my intuition and stop the dosing. It almost felt like I was being asked a question. “Have you learnt the lesson yet?” “Can you trust your intuition even though you’ve made an agreement with yourself to see this through?” “Even though you wish to write about this experience, and this may jeopardise that desire. Can you let go?”
If the experience had taught me anything it was to go with my intuition above all else, above my mind’s stories and the previous illusions I was viewing. So, I put an end to it. Against my better judgment or rational mind, I stopped this experiment. Knowing that I had received everything it had for me at this stage in my journey.
Overview:
My micro-dosing journey went nothing like I was expecting. It was on one hand a pivotal moment in my life and taught me so much, I was feeling better and had a better relationship with myself and life. On the other hand, I had no desire to continue the experience. I’m sure I will dabble with micro dosing in the future but have no present feelings towards the substance. So, would I endorse this experience? Fuck Yes! Is it for everyone? Fuck No! and that’s exactly it, listen to your needs, you’ll be surprised how aware you are of them.
Pros:
· Non-Addictive
· Reduced Depression and Anxiety
· Natural Treatment
Cons:
· Honestly, I didn’t experience any but be prepared to change with them. Don’t expect the experience to just happen and solve all your issues. Use it for what it is. More importantly once you do stop the dosage continue the practices that have brought you more joy and peace within your life.
Disclaimer:
Obviously take your own current mental state into consideration before introducing a psilocybin. More importantly, feel into your internal guidance and ask if this is what you need or if you are using this as an escape from facing what is present. Although micro-dosing can aid in working through stuck trauma, it should never be used as just a Band-Aid from sitting with what you need.